You’re not okay! And that’s okay.

Have you ever tried to hug yourself?

C’mon! Try it. Take your right arm and put it across your left shoulder. Now the same with your left arm across your right shoulder. See – there you go! A hug that you deserve as a reminder that you are enough. Your love is all you deserve.


The term self-love is quite underrated until you actually start experiencing it. It’s a liberating and free feeling. A sense of being safe and happy with your own self. It could be quiet dangerous though. Once you’ve felt what this feels like, no one else can satisfy you the same. Maybe, you don’t need another entity getting into your head and camouflaging the thoughts you had for a perfect person. The desire to be wanted, craving attention in that crowded room, or simply being acknowledged will all begin to fade away. The process is tedious and you’d probably never be there completely. But trying is what makes it matter right?

‘Not everyday can be a bed of roses’

Suffering from ADHD, PTSD, and Depression is hard. Your days could be perfectly well, the to-do-list wipes the floor off your feet, and you feel perfectly fine. And suddenly something in your head triggers and hits straight to your heart. The tears stream down your cheek and you find yourself ashamed and confused about what you are feeling. People often told me, you’re thinking too much, stay positive, it’s all in your head, you’re overreacting. It’s easier said than done. They need to understand, we are not doing this out of choice. Our mind sometimes takes control over us and everything seems impossible. Growing up in a dynamic, culturally diverse environment, it’s not been easy to talk about sufferings. Your parents, friends and loved ones won’t always understand. You need not expect them to either. Nobody would know how you feel.

Cherophobia is a phobia where a person has an irrational aversion to being happy. The term comes from the Greek word โ€œchero,โ€ which means โ€œto rejoice.โ€ When a person experiences cherophobia, they’re often afraid to participate in activities that many would characterize as fun, or of being happy.

-Urban Dictionary

You are either living in the past letting it hurt you, or thinking of the future worries like they are happening now. It’s not your fault if you lash out on the few people who you count on and end up losing them. It’s perfectly okay, to not be okay. The one’s who can understand are the one’s you keep closest.

‘There are going to be happy days too’

On my happier days I’d be out laying in the grass, witnessing the prettiest sunset with my favourite people, and NOT thinking. Just living the moment like I should. I’ve seldom felt like this and the adrenaline makes it even better.

Regardless of how people make you feel, your own state of mind is what’s salient.

I hope whatever it is that makes you feel low, upset, or angry; just remember that you are not alone and what you were years back, you will change-you will grow-and good things will happen ๐ŸŒธ

Oishmortal ยฉ

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  1. I am glad I came across this post, reading this gives me hope that things shall be okay! I cannot emphasize as to how brave and awesome you are for sharing this!

    More power to you girl !๐Ÿ’ž
    Keep smiling, you’re doing greatโ˜บ

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  2. Thank you for this wonderful message. Some people are perfectly able to constantly enjoy the moment, but for those who can’t – you can count me in-, they perfectly understand what you mean.

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    1. And I wouldn’t ever wonder how we connected. Thank you always for your lovely comments and your love ๐Ÿ’œ Thank you for being YOU
      I hope you have a merry Christmas and a great new year ๐ŸŒธ

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    1. I doubt it. I mean lately after being put back on Welbutrin 150 mg, that foot isn’t as sunk as it usually is but I’ve been surviving life for 51 years, I honestly think this is as good as it gets.

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