And being a woman would be easy they said… 🤦♀️
I have always been a healthy kid. Imagine being the tallest one in class and huge. There were other girls who looked bigger than me but I weighed more. I always wondered why! My child specialist doctor would always say: “It’s her baby fat. It will go.” And till today, I don’t see it go anywhere other than accumulate in my thighs and my buttocks.
A few years back, I weighed 100 kgs and I felt very uncomfortable. I was never fat-shamed or humiliated about my weight. (Maybe behind my back). However, I always liked to be mobile, be energetic, dance for hours and not sweat. I returned to India and lost a lot of weight toning down to 75 kgs within a span of 6 months. I felt lighter, I loved how my collar bones would pop up a tad bit. The best part was that my old clothes fit me.
Like a lot of you, I too have a corporate job. The difference between yours and mine is that I oscillate between different shifts every week. I did not realise how lethargic I was becoming, or how I always preferred to sleep or eat and not be my usual self. My weekends would pass away binge watching or simply doing activities which did not sweat me out. Just today, I visited a gynaecologist and she happened to be the most straight forward. A woman in her late 40s with a dry sense of sarcasm. What a rare find. She inquired about a million things and finally suggested to get a USG done to check for PCOS along with a blood test. What really tickled my bones is when we had this conversation:
Gynaecologist: you might have PCOS. What is causing such erratic schedules?
Me: my job! I have alternate shifts every week.
A week of Night, then Morning, later evening and so on…
Gynaecologist: seriosuly? QUIT your job then!
Once I got back home, I was totally convinced about changing my routine, prepping for exercises and all that jazz.
But I also got to think about how everybody keeps telling you to feel comfortable in your own skin. Be who you are and be proud. It hit me then that it isn’t about being skinny or fat. Looking hot or not. It is about being healthy. About taking care of yourself. Not being ignorant and knowing what is best for you.
I am absolutely going to transform myself and get me back to being the old me. Healthy and happy about how I feel.
I love taking pictures of myself. Sometimes bold, sometimes silly. I like my skin and I vow to be confident and be fit.
You have one life. Make it worth living! 🥂